.: smiled to me :.

Assalam fellas !

auwah, ai tau blog ni dah berhabuk, dah semak ngan debu hama yang dah lama tak bercuci. *berhenti merapu*

but yeah, it has been such a long time right fellas?

ai has been stop posting since my last post, *tertonggeng* isn't it right?

so this time ai will continue the al-kesah about dato'. *fine, siapa dah mula rasa bosan sila blah sekarang*

terima kasih kepada yang masih sanggup membaca. 

sejak bermula lepas cuti raya hari tu, dato' and ai dah makin rapat, *before ni rapat jugak tapi kali lagi rapat*

dia selalu share stories tentang so-called awek dia tu, and ai kongsi sikit tips nak pikat hati perempuan, then we share our hobbies, thoughts, drama film etc. 

maybe ai have been mentioned before that this dato's type is kind of dull, awkward, very silent and up to everything he is kind of very shy to the other girl, but now, he's changed. 

personally ai tak suka perubahan mendadak yang berlaku kat dia, dalam otak ai asyik dok pikiaq, 

"dia ni culture-shock ke?"

tapi takkan la dah 3tahun setengah masuk kampus baru nak kena culture-shock kot.

there is a time when ai can feels that how concern he is to me but at that very moment ai keeps reminding to myself yang dia hanya nak practice for his so-called awek.

and now, ai mula treat him like a stranger, sometimes being quiet harsh to me but that is for my own good. ai should not treat him nicely, he should not do the same for me too. 

ai have once told him this,

"one day, if you do fall onto another girl, choose her because if you do love the present one with your full heart, you will never fall onto the other one."

and ai hope he keeps to his promises that he said,

"sure, but i know i will never betrayed her (his so-called awek)"

ai nodded at him and gives thumbs up. 

mybe this is how Him wants to showed me that dato' is not the one for me. ai have given my faith onto Him so lets Him decide what is best for me. 

as for now, maybe ai will just focus on everything that ai do, protect my own feelings as best as ai can, an stay happy. that's the least ai can do for myself.

and for him, ai will stay as his friend as long as how it will takes. time decide everything for us.

again,ai can feels how dull this entry could be to you, biyanne but that is as far as ai can utter most. 

xoxo*tunduk hormat*